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Based in: USA · San Francisco. Height 167cm Weight 60kg Virgo
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Simply giving little M a few tips on finding S, purely personal humble opinions, for reference only. 1. Pay attention to S's Q age and online name. A good S, their time in the circle is relatively long, their online name generally won't change, their Q number generally won't be changed either. If you encounter an S with a short Q age or who frequently changes Q numbers and online names, choose carefully. The logic is like people who frequently change phone numbers, their trustworthiness is not high. Understand the logic yourself. 2. S who lures you with material things, be cautious. Although S&M needs a certain material foundation, a real S won't use material conditions to take in M. When the relationship reaches a certain degree, having material exchanges is another matter, but those who frequently show off this and that of theirs, who lure with material things right from the start, promising you such and such conditions, clearly that's the P circle set, the starting point has a problem, please be cautious. 3. An S with multiple M is not necessarily bad. I find many M when looking for S say they don't accept 'multi-sub masters', to be honest, I somewhat don't understand this idea. Of course, if you are looking for S to marry, then I can understand. Besides that, try not to confuse the concept of dating. Actually, haven't you thought in reverse, if the S you meet doesn't even have an M, do you really think he's reliable? Would an experienced good S have no M? Of course, if you meet an S who has already separated from M and is in a window period, that's your luck. But why did he separate from the original M? Still need to do more side understanding. However, an S with too many M is not necessarily good either, after all an S's energy is limited, too many, obviously can't take care of them all. So, an S with multiple M is not necessarily bad; an S with no M is not necessarily all good. 4. Recommendations still have an effect. You can find some old people in the circle, famous S or M to introduce or recommend for you. After all people have been around long, know many people, it has a certain effect. But whether you are suitable, you need to communicate and understand more, what truly decides the relationship is yourselves, it has nothing to do with the introducer. 5. Remember to leave a buffer period. Maybe you impulsively established a relationship with S online at that time, but remember to definitely leave a buffer period with S before reality. This buffer period protects you, maybe you calm down and will regret, you can discuss with S to dissolve the relationship. Additionally, this also tests whether your S is mature and steady, has self-control, especially that kind who just established a relationship and is eager for reality, the suspicion of being a fake S is very heavy! Alright, what should be said, what should not be said, that's all I'll say. Poet Gu Cheng said: The night gave me black eyes, but I use them to seek light. But I only want to say: Little M, please open your eyes wide!
I named myself Shi (Passed Away), so time really passed away, I and the person I can't forget, from now on, will never meet in all our years.
What is the significance of persistence。
How to find the first M (Part 1) 1. First I need to state a viewpoint: a good S is harder to find than an M Now many people have a relatively common view: relative to S, M is easier to find a partner. While S has it much harder. Speaking of this, I want to declare that what I'm talking about here is a 'good' S, harder to find than M. In this circle, an objectively existing fact is: more than 99% are fake S, or scumbag S. And a truly excellent S never lacks M. He even never actively looks for M. At the same time there is another objectively existing fact: many people don't know how to become an S. Many people have searched for several years yet cannot find an M. There was once a period of being single, chatting idly in a group, saying I wanted to take in an M. Then many friends in the group joked and asked about my requirements. Of course, during that time I did want to take in an M, so I very seriously answered his question, saying: must go through application, inspection, trial, and only after passing can one be qualified to be my M. As soon as these words came out, immediately waves were stirred. Immediately many people were dissatisfied. But I really didn't lie. I really did take in M like that. After saying it, there were also m's who came to talk, and I gained an m, and in the end we were together for half a year. Of course, I use myself as an example not because I think I'm very clever or厉害. It's just through this passage to state a personal viewpoint. Write some personal experience. For interested friends to reference. Back to the topic just now, why do I say a good S is harder to find than M, personally I think there are two reasons: First: Two concepts 1: Not a person with S tendencies can be called S, you must truly have your own M, and have done real-life games, done many projects and basically mastered the essentials, only then can you barely be called an S 2: Not having done real-life games makes you an S, to truly be called S you must have comprehended the essence of the game, can lead M to enjoy the fun of the game. Otherwise this can only count as a person who plays games. Second: Talent and pursuit Everyone's understanding of S/M is different, for example what I state now is also only my personal experience and understanding. I think an S, at minimum, has comprehension and talent (EQ). Also needs a certain economic foundation to support plus several years of practice. S's pursuit is not only physiological, and not only simple training and controlling his own M, but pursuing a higher-level realm. S cannot only say, I conquered M, controlled M, shaped M. I think there is something more important than this: how to protect M, let M while enjoying fun and happiness, not leave a shadow in life. To be able to do, in the game M is crazily beyond measure, when leaving the game, can again confidently投入 into life. S must have good qualities, the same during games. Usually even more is M's good teacher and friend. Has knowledge, taste, vision, has a good life and work attitude, not decadent. Leads M to be a positive person. S must have good character, decisive, firm, responsible, values feelings. Only then has charisma. Truly willing to spend effort to teach according to aptitude, leading M together toward a safe and happy limit. So, casually playing with a wild M, or holding a sign, an S who takes anyone, is that really a good S? 2. Back to the main topic: Why can't you find M After stating the above viewpoints, some people may already understand why they can't find M. But still summarize First: First find the reason from yourself Do you really understand S/M? Do you know how to train? Is your economic condition enough? Is your charisma enough? Etc., rather take the time spent looking everywhere for M, and put it on improving your learning and understanding of the game. Read more, think more, contemplate more. Suggest looking at how other S or M do it. Second: Know yourself and know the other You must truly understand M's types and mentality. Only then can you distinguish what M really wants. Let me roughly summarize M's types and mentality 1. Curious onlooking type: Just curious, seeking novelty, not necessarily has M tendencies 2. Observing and waiting type: Knows she likes the game, also truly wants to find a suitable S for herself, but is more cautious, very attentive to safety, also very picky about S selection 3. Fooling around type: Mainly younger girls are more common. M tendency not necessarily large. But likes stimulation, curiosity, likes trying new things. 4. Worldly experienced type: Truly is M, has experienced many S. Strictly speaking, any type could become your M. At minimum they are not averse to the game. But there is a degree of difficulty. For S who haven't entered or aren't experienced enough, the first type is hard to persuade into M. The third type seemingly very interested, willing to chat with you, but actually may just be teasing. If you don't hit it off, will immediately turn hostile. The fourth type is completely self-humiliation. Most likely is the second type, they are very cautious. Many are students, white-collar workers or others, all have status, have proper occupations. They are very picky about S selection. If you directly ask: are you willing to be my M or hold a sign there recruiting M. Estimate they'd directly ignore it, too low. Furthermore: in unfamiliar situations, directly ask what projects you like, what conditions you like. This is extremely impolite, this is personal privacy. Why should M tell you. Even more, I directly call this kind of person hehe, opening their mouth saying: crawl over! Bark twice! Is this called S? I think this might be a dog. The second type, although very cautious, they truly like S/M, once they认定 an S, will be very loyal, very stable, is gold buried in the soil, worth us digging for. Here, I must emphasize a point, all M are normal people. With you just met by chance. Don't open and close your mouth with dirty words. M is not promiscuous. It's just their requirements for sex have already sublimated into a spiritual need!
Please humiliate me, humiliate you with every possible method Let you have nowhere to escape in front of me Tear off the last fig leaf on your body, please disgust you with my saliva Please tear apart your face This face is not more important than the "I love you" I said to you Please humiliate me, your dignity is far less than my noble soul Stranger, please humiliate you joyfully Build my happiness on your pain Today, now, at this moment You must declare war like negativity You must be like a newborn infant, completely naked You are not shy, nor timid, your gaze is fervent You once perceived the other side of the world Withstands scrutiny yet is无比 ugly Every time the world's eyes look toward you There is a sadness hard to speak of
It is undeniable that love in the circle cannot last long. I have always accepted this view, although it is inhumane, it states the truth. Just as I said before, I am not a person who likes permanence. Indeed, permanence has always been a luxury. But behind seeming permanence, what is love? Love is the most beautiful thing in the world. And in the circle, what is love? Is it the heart-wrenching crying and shouting in the tj process, is it that momentary pleasure? Different people have different insights, and I see love in the circle belonging only to a certain thing. As the saying goes, seeing an object makes you think of the person, isn't it so? When the m leaves, the s sees the collar sitting there idly with no one using it, inevitably there will be some sense of loss in his heart. Many years later, that feeling still exists, like branded on the heart. Only after leaving do you truly understand love. Having experienced too many partings yet not daring to love. This is contradictory in the circle. What exactly is love? Before I watched friends in the circle show off their s or m, to be honest inevitably a bit envious. But these are all ordinary, much the same. I once wrote about Xiyue, the encounter at the café is unforgettable to this day. And in the long time after she left, I really felt nothing, the heart-wrenching pain others talked about became endless silence, even became depression. And when I stepped into that café again, it was still afternoon, the sunlight was just right, the mocha was still that cup of mocha, opposite there was no cup of caramel macchiato, even less that person. Perhaps what the circle fears most is memories, thus it starts to collapse, the long-suppressed oppression bursts out here. Prosperity ends, full of desolation. Every couple in the circle hopes for forever, at a time of repeated familiarity, that intimacy makes us dependent, sudden leaving may be sad, but after a long time, seeing the things my m used, at that moment, past memories surface before my eyes, unknowingly, my eyes will also moisten. The S who was originally high above, symbolizing faith, when using feelings deeply, will also take off the armor and return to authenticity. Whether S or M, at the beginning the most authentic role is a person, a person has seven emotions and six desires, so encountering memories, there will always be some emotional fluctuation. Just like Stephen Chow (Supreme Treasure) meeting Zixia, in their love, Supreme Treasure is more like S, Zixia is more like M, Supreme Treasure from his heart does not resist Zixia, Zixia wholeheartedly only wants Supreme Treasure. Aren't we the same? But in the end they didn't walk together, Supreme Treasure still loves Zixia, even like a dog, he cannot forget her, that only her. In the sea of suffering love and hate surge, the world cannot escape fate. In our lifetime we will meet many people, the appearance of these people is by no means accidental, his appearance will definitely teach you something. M taught S responsibility, S taught M rules and respect. Everything is like this, we should cherish, even if leaving, should be grateful. Going around and around, still cannot escape this circle, perhaps it is fate. Eight parts like, two parts dignity, giving up you is also giving up me. This may be most people's feeling toward M, until leaving, like becomes ten parts, dignity is gone, facing memories, don't talk about dignity, heart-wrenching, human nature. Seeing an object and thinking of a person, is a person warm or cold? All memories are the embodiment of love. When a song is entangled with a segment of your experience, a relationship, you can no longer control your emotions autonomously, as long as this melody sounds, you may drop tears, hearing it in a café will make you cry, shopping in a mall will make you cry, even taking a bath at home playing a song may drop tears, not that you can't forget someone. Just always brooding over that fruitless giving of yours and the love that was wasted too fervently.
As M/S has developed to today, its scope is already far more than just bondage and whipping. Only knowing how to play with ropes and whips doesn't count as a real S. According to my experience, more M's need spiritual abuse. They get excited by being able to be stepped under an S's feet. They don't like physical abuse, don't like being beaten. This kind of M/S relationship is very much like the relationship between a person and a Dog in life, and the Dog slave clan thus came into being. Many novice S's understand literally, thinking a Dog slave is just imitating a Dog's movements and habits for the S to play with. If you understand it this way and do it, you will lose the great pleasure of owning a Dog slave. Exaggeratedly speaking, you'd be better off buying a real Dog to relieve boredom. A Dog slave is actually better called a Dog-heart slave. Its characteristic is to be loyal and obedient to the S like a Dog, learn to crawl like a Dog, be ridden by the S, lick feet to please the S — these behaviors are only a Dog slave's basic skills. A qualified Dog slave will take the S's will as his own spiritual pillar. He worships the S's body and every word and action, even worships the S's excrement. In their hearts, the urine discharged from the S's body is far more attractive than fruit juice. S's vividly call this kind of slave a toilet slave or human toilet. This kind of Dog slave brings the S extreme conquest pleasure. Training a Dog slave generally takes a period of time. People all have seven emotions and six desires. To make him completely give up dignity and willingly be a Dog under your feet is not easy. This is different from playing physical abuse. An S who likes Dog slaves should have a certain charm. In other words, you must have a relatively large attraction to the M. If at the beginning the M has no interest in you, then you should immediately choose to give him up. Please remember, the more the M likes you, the less effort you need to spend training him, even without much training he will be submissive. So the S must understand his own influence on the M. If you can make good use of your strengths, training a Dog slave will be twice as effective with half the effort. Below I will specifically talk about how to train a Dog slave. First declare this is personal training experience, hope to exchange with everyone. Step one, you need to give the M a Dog name, the more like a Dog's name the better, you can name according to the M's appearance, this will be more humiliating, for example if his hair is a bit curly call him Curly, if his personality is cheerful call him Huanhuan etc. This sounds much better than directly calling the M a Dog. Don't underestimate the form of address, it can instantly bring the S and M's relationship much closer. Step two, tell the M the rules to obey. Each S's requirements will be a bit different, but some basics are all required. Here I list some Dog slave behavior norms for S's to exchange: 1. A Dog slave is not allowed to be higher than the S in posture, this is the most basic requirement. 2. A Dog slave when receiving the S's training or reward should express thanks, can kiss the S's buttocks, rub his face against the crotch or sniff feet etc., must be like a Dog's behavior. 3. When eating, must be at the S's feet, what utensil to eat with is decided by the S, generally the Dog slave is not allowed to use hands to help eat, only use the mouth. 4. When the S has no instructions, the Dog slave should quietly lie at the S's feet, at this time can familiarize himself with the smell of the S's feet, but note not to affect the S. 5. When a Dog slave has something to do he must first ask the S for instructions, and only after obtaining consent can he do it. S's can also think of other norms, note they must conform to your actual living situation, don't be absurd. Step three, personal training suggestion is to proceed gradually, start from the simple, slowly cultivate the mood, let both sides enter the role. Here talk about my personal method: Generally I first train the Dog slave to sniff my smell, this lets the Dog slave enter the role fastest. Dogs very much like sniffing, and the S also enjoys it relatively, sitting or lying as you please, the Dog slave of course must use a kneeling posture. You can take more worn and unworn shoes, socks, underwear etc., let the Dog slave sniff carefully. The S had better keep using verbal stimulation, ask if it's fragrant, does it smell good, do you like worn or unworn etc. such words. You can use a socked foot to forcefully step on his mouth and nose, when he can't stand suffocating, release a bit, then forcefully step again. The Dog slave greedily breathes in the moment you release, before breathing enough is blocked by you again, he will feel his life is in your hands, thus will revere you more, please you. S's who like toilet slaves can, when urinating, let the Dog slave put his nose close to your ■, when you urinate, let him take deep breaths. Remember don't urinate on his face. Training a toilet slave needs the most patience. At the beginning never scare him, if at the beginning the Dog slave develops disgust for this, it will be very hard to succeed afterwards. When you finish urinating, you can try to let the Dog slave clean your private parts for you, lick clean the remaining urine. In sniffing training the most crucial is the master's verbal stimulation, on one hand it can deepen the M's slavishness, on the other hand it can also 'embolden' yourself. When the Dog slave keeps saying your socks smell so good, you will definitely feel a great sense of achievement. Next you can train licking skills. The Dog slave's mouth is perhaps the only useful thing on his body for the S. If trained well, his Dog mouth can do many things for you, and licking is the main function. Specifically what to lick is decided by the S, best to discuss beforehand. I don't recommend letting the Dog slave do things he fundamentally doesn't accept, unless you want to lose him. I personally like to let the Dog slave lick the anus, posture uses face-sitting. Speaking of face-sitting, it's necessary to explain in detail. Face-sitting is the way that makes the Dog slave feel most humiliated and excited. Imagine, one person's buttocks sits on another person's face, your excrement outlet tightly sticks to the other's eating mouth, he uses his tongue to pleasingly lick you there, under your buttocks breathing with difficulty, and you order him to forcefully stretch his tongue into the anus to lick. Leisurely and comfortably enjoying his service. Among all Dog slave training, I most recommend face-sitting. For this I bought a dedicated licking chair (similar to the toilet chair used by elderly with mobility difficulties, just more exquisite and comfortable), so I don't need to lift my buttocks every now and then, can sit for a long time without moving and do my own things. If S's who like face-sitting can't buy a dedicated chair, they can buy a toilet chair instead, very cheap, and the effect is the same, go enjoy the endless fun of face-sitting quickly. Besides licking the anus, licking feet is also a commonly used training method. You can smear honey, jam and such things on the feet, or step on and crush a banana and let the Dog slave lick and eat it. These are good for skin, plus saliva has sterilizing and beautifying effects. If he licks many times, you will be pleasantly surprised to find foot skin becomes tender and smooth. Next you can train the Dog slave to do physical work, that is crawling. Best to lead with a chain or rope. There are many ways to walk, you can lead him crawling all over the house, or let him fetch shoes and socks in his mouth for you to wear, or let him drill and play under your crotch. If the Dog slave's endurance is ok, you can do Dog riding play. There's a key to riding, don't ride on the Dog slave's waist, that way he won't last long, should be a bit forward, ride on the back. When the Dog slave is tired let him lie down and rest a while, you can give him your feet to smell, give him some motivation. Crawling looks simple, actually it's quite tiring. When the Dog slave crawls don't forget to encourage him, for example you can say 'in a while I'll reward you with 10 minutes of face-sitting... reward you to eat ■... reward you to wash my feet with your mouth' etc., depending on the Dog slave's preferences, and also establish a concept for him: smelling and licking the S's body is a reward. This will make him worship you more and more. Then it should also be meal time, very simple, one up one down, one sitting one kneeling, best put a small basin or such utensil at the feet as a Dog bowl. The S eats while throwing some food into the basin for the Dog slave to eat. If there's meat with bones even better, don't chew it too clean, throw it to the Dog slave, that's definitely a reward. Or when the S eats let the Dog slave serve, lick feet for you, massage legs etc., after eating reward him to eat leftovers. If there's soup, dip your foot in it and let him lick and drink, good for skin (remember, as long as there's a chance to lick feet never miss it). I also like to rinse my mouth after meals, reward the mouthwash to the Dog slave to drink. If he can very readily drink your mouthwash, you can consider training him as a toilet slave. Training a toilet slave is more troublesome, but once successful you'll find it very convenient. Suggest drinking more water, eating some fruit, so the urine smell becomes lighter, and urination times are more, can train more times. My training method is this: let the Dog slave kneel well, holding a spittoon or such thing under his mouth, I directly urinate into his mouth, don't force him to drink it down, when full it will naturally flow into the spittoon. First let him experience the feeling of being a human toilet, familiarize with the taste of urine. Some Dog slaves will unconsciously drink some. Unless his appetite is especially good, otherwise there will definitely be a vomiting reaction. The S must pay attention to verbal stimulation, remind the Dog slave whose urine this is, ask him if he likes you very much, let him think about whether the smelling and licking, face-sitting just now were very enjoyable, tell him he's already a qualified Dog Dog. In short say more words that arouse his desire, haha, being a good S is not easy. Originally M/S is a matter for both sides, although the S is destined to enjoy, but without the M, where would your pleasure come from? The mistake novice S's most easily make is only caring about themselves, not caring about the M's feelings, thus the two break up after doing it once, even flip out before finishing once. Being an S must have patience, must be good at being considerate to the M, especially a Dog slave, consideration is more effective than punishment. He serves you willingly because he likes you and worships you. So don't imagine letting the Dog slave drink all your urine the first time. Even a veteran with several months of toilet slave experience cannot smoothly drink a full urination. Large volume and strong smell, we enjoy the pleasure of using a human toilet, what he feels drinking it we cannot feel. Of course if he can very smoothly drink all your urine, then you are too lucky, afterwards urinating can be solved on the spot. As for the highest realm of toilet slave, toilet slave, I don't have much experience. I once let several Dog slaves be toilet paper, but the feeling wasn't too good, licked for a long time still not clean, I was also very tired, far less convenient than using toilet paper. My method is to let the Dog slave wipe me clean, then use his tongue to massage the anus for me, because the anus just after defecation is a bit tight, letting the Dog slave lick it is indeed very comfortable. In addition I once tried this method a few times, let the slave lie down, put a plastic bag on his face (must be that thick transparent kind, best white, note it must not be leaking, otherwise it will be troublesome), I directly defecate into the plastic bag, the Dog slave's face and my feces are separated by a thin layer of plastic bag, he can see the state of my defecation, can also feel the warmth of the feces. This is a very fun method, and easy to accept. If the S has a toilet chair it will be more comfortable, if not, you need to put something under your feet, otherwise the height is not enough. Many S's also like oral sex, this is the way that makes the S feel most pleasurable, generally also as the closing of a round of training. Once the S ejaculates, generally there's not much interest to train the Dog slave anymore. There are many postures for oral sex: S standing M kneeling, or S lying M prone, or M lying S riding at the neck. You can first let the Dog slave actively lick and suck, when your sexual desire is fully up, then actively fuck his mouth, movements don't be too crazy, otherwise hitting Dog teeth will be quite painful. Fucking the mouth using a combination of fast/slow and deep/shallow is better, the Dog slave will have time to breathe. The highest realm of oral sex is deep throat. I introduce a posture more conducive to deep throat: let the Dog slave lie on a bed or a higher sofa, platform etc., head hanging in the air drooping down, so his mouth and throat are basically in a straight line, you stand behind his head, adjust the height well, start fucking the mouth, you will find it's easy to insert very deep. Of course the Dog slave will have a vomiting reaction, so must come slowly. When inserted to the throat position, pause a little while, let him adapt. If he can adapt, rotate a bit, experience the strong pleasure of the glans rubbing with the soft flesh in the hot throat, stop for a few seconds then come out, then slowly insert again, never be hasty. After fucking like this for a while, observe the Dog slave's reaction, if he can adapt then slowly speed up the rhythm, have patience. If his reaction has always been relatively large, stop, move your buttocks to his face, let him smell and lick for a while, then continue fucking the mouth, repeat like this, neither boring, the S also feels very pleasurable. The Dog slave's deep throat can be practiced, this is the same principle as training a human toilet, human adaptability is very strong, often doing one thing he will get used to it. The basic training methods for Dog slaves are roughly this many, of course they can be integrated into daily life, for example when watching TV, washing feet, bathing, surfing the internet, the Dog slave will at any time become my footrest, cushion, foot-wiping cloth, stool, urinal etc. As an S you must pay attention to your own cultivation, not many Dog slaves can accept a filthy, sloppily dressed bad S. I've trained quite a few Dog slaves, the most recent Dog slave has been with me for several months, I named him Black Panther, because he's a bit black, training is very successful. Generally on weekends or holidays I will let him come serve me for two days. After getting up in the morning he must do morning worship, kneel beside the shoes I wore yesterday, holding my socks in his mouth, bury his face in the shoes and take deep breaths for a few minutes, then serve me to get up. He still can't drink much urine, especially morning smell is strongest, just like I said before use a spittoon and mouth to receive my morning urine. I ride him to the bathroom to defecate. When I defecate I generally let him hold my ■ in his mouth, intermittently reward him a little urine to drink, or lick feet for me, finish then wipe for me, use tongue to massage the anus. When I wash up I like to ride on his shoulders, he just half-kneels half-sits like that. Finish then let him wash up, then eat breakfast, he kneels below smelling the crotch or smelling feet to familiarize with my body odor. After I'm full I reward the leftovers to him, I use my foot-washing basin as his Dog food bowl, let him lick and eat clean. After the meal start training him, roughly the things said before, slowly increase some difficulty, mainly toilet slave training is difficult, his appetite is shallow, I keep drinking water, in one morning can urinate about 10 times, estimate what he drank also has to be a full urination, I'm quite satisfied. Lunch not to mention, then I will take a nap, I generally will also let him sleep, after all nourishing enough spirit makes him more durable to play. I like to let him sleep in my pile of shoes, beside his face are all my shoes. Sometimes I will sleep completely naked, the underwear taken off just covers his face. After waking up in the afternoon I generally go online, sitting on the licking chair, he serves below. When I want to fart I will prompt him there's a reward, he will use his lips to tightly stick around my anus, preventing my precious fart from leaking, but farting like that is a bit difficult. During surfing I might want to soak my feet, just let him fetch water to wash for me, must use mouth and tongue to wash, after washing reward him to drink two mouthfuls, the rest leave for him to brush teeth and wash face at night. Generally I don't allow him to drink water directly, must drink water my feet have dipped in, or use socks soaked in water, let him suck the water in the socks to drink. If he's lucky, he will get water I've rinsed my mouth with to drink. At night I prefer oral sex, can play 1, 2 hours, as long as mouth fucking isn't too fierce, enjoying the oral sex process is more pleasurable than purely ejaculating out. Tired then change patterns. If weather is hot bathe every day, let him be a stool for me to sit and bathe, can also lick my feet. I especially like being licked, his tongue skills have been trained by me to be very good. As long as toilet slave training succeeds, I have nothing to pick on him. Wrote so much, actually just want to tell S's two things: one is to be like an S, must instill more such thoughts into M: I play with you is rewarding you, you serving me is your honor, pay attention in the training process verbal stimulation is very important. Two is to remind S's not to go too far, loosen and tighten appropriately, discuss beforehand what cannot be accepted, the rest you can do as you please. Remember, a Dog slave is not a person, can be anything you can use, when you can use him never use other things, you use him one more time, he is one step closer to the word 'cheap', always remind him, your anus is much more noble than his mouth. Finally say a sentence, an S who trains Dog slaves must have a very strong desire to conquer, if just curious to try then forget it, you will suffer a lot. Wish S's who like Dog slaves find and train a satisfactory good Dog soon.
Actually what makes me collapse is very simple, it's the tone you speak to me with, it's your impatience, it's your messages that don't reply for hours, it's your neglect, it's your disregard, it's your doing whatever you want, it's those words you said to me before that you forgot, it's those hopes you gave me, those disappointments, it's my feelings that you never considered, it's those words you said to me, making me fall to the bottom, it's your lack of understanding thinking everything is wrong, yet you didn't do it.
Losing a person hurts you the most not with the surging pain at the moment of losing, but when you thought time had healed everything, yet every few days you suddenly think of this person unexpectedly, unable to get rid of it, gone and comes again.
Money and feelings. (1) On fake M scamming money The first kind, right away will tell you, I charge, do you want to play or not. Actually this kind, classifying as scam is a bit extreme, after all others are telling the truth, no problem. This is a profession for them, for some who don't have an M or don't want to spend time and energy managing an S/sub relationship, this kind of fast food is actually not bad. When you encounter this kind, you don't need to curse loudly, respect the profession, others are open and frank, just delete them directly. The second kind, after adding you will hint you to send a red packet, to see your sincerity. Some will play the long game to catch a big fish, and some will directly finish in one go, take the red packet and block you. The third kind, compared to the second kind, they will be a bit more subtle, after communicating they are very reserved. Will intentionally or unintentionally mention money aspects, ok, once you take the bait. The initial reserve becomes how much money you send, how much body I show. In short, whatever you like, you like K9, she immediately says I also like kneeling on the ground barking like a dog; you like KB (bondage), she immediately tells you, I super like being tied up and unable to move; you talk about LuChu (exposure), she immediately types to you, I think of being taken by you to the park to crawl like a dog etc. a series. In short it makes you feel, wow, this is simply tailor-made M for you. Then for example, need toys, specify what she wants, let you buy it. Actually, this specified toy, who knows how many people she's told. One set of toys at home, reimbursed N many times, really nice, several hundred income in the bag at once. Then for example, chatting so congenially, shouldn't we strike while the iron is hot, meet for a meal, book a hotel to exchange TJ (training) how about it. Then the problem comes, travel fare, the master should book it right. The other party either has no money in the card recently, or says I've come thousands of miles to find you, shouldn't you show me some sincerity? Quickly transfer money, generally when seduced to the point of meeting, basically men all think, this is my M. My little sub, what can't I trust, transfer it, then get blocked, end. (2) On real M loving money Actually regarding this point, I have always thought playing these still needs a certain economic foundation. In reality girls all want to find a man with better conditions, so in the circle wanting to find an S with better conditions, there's no problem. After all, who doesn't like better toys, a better hotel during TJ, or usually can have better gifts. But I have also seen many M, who are a bit extreme on this point. Judging whether an S is good or not, first thing is to look at money. Before in a group, I pulled a friend into the group. This friend belongs to the economically good type, maybe used to solving things with money usually. As soon as he entered the group it was all kinds of red packets, sure enough, some girls who usually don't speak all came out. All kinds of ingratiating, all kinds of showing themselves. After two days, friend asked me how is that so-and-so, I asked who. Friend screenshotted for me to see, I looked. Eh, isn't this the M of an uncle in the group? Didn't they show affection every day before, so I quickly went to quietly ask this uncle, how are you recently? How are you and your little girl? Uncle answered, busy with work, relationship with the girl is good! Also met in reality a few times, the girl took the initiative to go, he cherishes it very much. Then behind the scenes, it's such a fact. Facing such a thing, I just silently told my friend, she has an S. Then friend showed me a few more who added him, half were publicly having an S. Still the kind who usually show loyalty to their master, devoted, non-other-not-possible kind. Also seen some girls, themselves are indeed more attractive. So, they like to flirt everywhere with rich masters, don't say they acknowledge anyone, in short, she has been waiting for the next richer one, and won't let go of other small fish. (3) "Scum" in feelings As a woman myself, to evaluate the scum in this aspect, it's actually a bit pretentious. In this circle, men always openly collect M, always have one and secretly once there's a chance want to chat flirtatiously with a few more. But, as a woman, especially want to say a sentence, men, please never be mysteriously confident about your sexual ability and your attractiveness to women. Too much confidence will make you unable to see the facts clearly. To be honest, China is still a patriarchal society to this day, including in the circle. Most people think the phenomenon of male S having many M is normal to acceptable, but for female M having many S they sneer. I can only say male S many M is on the surface, while female M even if they have a master, flirting everywhere, even having many S is an indisputable fact on the dark side. Many S think they've collected an M, who will be devoted to them. So inside restlessly go to develop new directions, don't forget, your sub is also restless. You flirt in the east, she hooks up in the west, no problem, harmonious. Both busy, so neither will discover. The above one possibility is not getting what they want, so still searching, even if they have a fixed one, because it's not what they truly want, yet greedy for temporary stability, it doesn't really hurt anyone. But there is such a group of girls, always delicate, always looking pitiful. In front of this S they tell their grievances, in front of that S they cry about their misfortune. Moving around different people, others are moved by her, have feelings for her, but she will tell you, you are very good, but I'm not ready yet. She accepts your company, accepts your red packets, accepts your gifts, accepts the feelings you offer, only cannot accept you as her S. Such a person needs not an S, but attention, attention will make her feel more than S/sub. Actually, whether man or woman, doing anything, should be worthy of their own conscience. Cannot give, then don't accept, let alone demand. What I said about these so-called scum things is not scum in the strict sense. It's just that from some angles, it's not so moral, or will hurt others. But, similarly, the appearance of these scum things is also because there are many people who accepted it. This is probably human nature, I always tell many people, looking at things don't look at the surface, should look at human nature, probably this is what it means.
As a female S, you look at your sub being无比 submissive, seemingly enjoying all the beauty these things bring you. In reality you also know, the man kneeling in front of you is not strong, he is very cowardly. He cannot strategize for your difficulties, cannot bring changes to your life, cannot let your spirit face far away, he can't even notice that trace of sadness in your eyes. He is just your servant. And not necessarily loyal. That's all At this time a man appears in your life, not necessarily strong but can see through your weakness at a glance, then pulls you into his embrace, you are safe and at ease there. In life he respects your character, controls your bad temper, eliminates your negative energy. Changes your bad habits, regulates your life. You talk together about Archimedean Yang, talk about France's San Francisco Iron Tower. Fantasize about Egypt's Constantinople. He takes care of your life, broadens your horizons. On a certain day in time you finally, as a sub, kneel in front of him, lightly licking his soles. At that moment. You knew, you were originally just a sub, just hadn't met a strong S. Suddenly you wake from the dream, you look at the empty house and the sub at the side, cold cold cold.
Thank you for your great kindness, Hope to see you again.
Every time it rains, I still think of you, think of those images where even breathing feels heartbreaking.
Cold here, icy cold there. You belong to neither, leaves have withered. Your face is pale and blue, a tearful S.mile. Something in your eyes, whispers words of last good-bye. My heart sinks down, tears surge out
Already sent. Good night, @寒夜舞雪
People say handwriting reflects the person. Shall I, this girl, show my face?
The masses have never longed for truth, they turn a blind eye to evidence that doesn't suit their taste. If fallacies are tempting to them, they prefer to worship fallacies. Whoever provides them with illusions can easily become their master; whoever destroys their illusions will become their sacrifice." Even though many of them are not true, even though the person involved has clarified again and again. But the truth is no longer important. Compared to facts, they prefer to see a person in a wretched state after falling to the bottom. Scandals are always more deeply rooted in people's hearts than clarifications. The more "innocent and flawless" a person's image is, the more people want to see him stained with a "blemish". Yan Geling's work "Youth" says: "Once you discover that a hero can also fall into a well, the people who throw stones are especially brave, and the crowd will be especially crowded." Back then, Ruan Lingyu's left phrase "gossip is fearful" still stings us today. Nowadays, the people who carry out violence have changed generation after generation, but have never disappeared. "Facing keyboard warriors, what we should do is be fully rational, think thrice before speaking. Because if you scold him, you become him." Villains who speak without care are not worth our effort. Bad reviews can be deleted by people, forgotten by people. But victims will never forget those nightmarish pains. Some people can adjust their mentality and slowly walk out of the haze, while others will sink deep into the quagmire of fear and depression, to the point of choosing the most extreme way to end everything. Yes, the sweat you've shed, the suffering you've endured, others cannot empathize with. But if you are slightly careless, you may become a sharp sword for villains to crusade against you. The world turning bad starts from the carnival of onlookers.
Whether you love or don't love, those people who were once familiar, you will never see again in the next life. Bai Yansong once said: Every parting is a small death. It turns out, what is loved really will suddenly be separated by mountains and seas, and mountains and seas cannot be leveled. The San Francisco subway Line 5暴雨 incident, it has been exactly 9 days until now. Those families who lost loved ones, their tears may have already dried. I can understand this heart-wrenching pain. At this moment, any comfort is blank. I only pray, these survivors must be safe and healthy. Tomorrow and accidents, we really don't know who will come first. Our fate in this life is too short, too short. Too short to outrun a暴雨, a subway ride, too short that after one WeChat message, we never see each other again. Owning is all luck, the accidents of life are the norm. May the people who disappeared in that heavy rain be well in another world. Whether love or not love, we will never see each other again. But you have been to this world, you have been brave, everyone remembers. And we must all please remember: Time is not long. In this world, gathering together is actually harder than parting. While there's still time now, go see the person you want to see, go do the thing you want to do. Don't, on an ordinary day that couldn't be more ordinary, lose the most important part of your life, and then be in pain. (If I had superpowers would you not have died? I could have rescued you, not like now sitting alone on the mountain holding flowers to commemorate you lovely hardworking people, if I had the ability I hope for world peace, no death. I hope I am a cold-blooded animal that won't cry.)
I'll fight against anyone who is opposed to 9you.Anyone dare to be hostile to you, he will be my enemy.
Good morning. The depression patient is having breakfast. So now let me explain what depression is, not everyone deserves to have depression. Worldwide only 6.9% incidence, in China only 4.0%, so if someone tells everyone they meet that they have depression, then basically you can be sure you're faking it. This disease is not something that comes to you just because you want it, because you're in a bad mood you have depression? Or for some reason? Real depression is not moving, not speaking, not eating, one action can be maintained for seven or eight hours, there will be hallucinations. Auditory confusion, in later severe stages needs medication and injections for treatment because of body pain, need to maintain a certain dose? Low mood, slowed thinking, reduced volition, cognitive impairment. These were already there when initial symptoms appeared. Excluding treatment after medication, so facing those on the internet who type very fast and think very clearly, you cannot judge that he has a mental illness, has depression affecting work, study, life and social interaction, severely will have suicidal ideation and behavior. And actually act on it rather than just talk big, so what is low mood, slowed thinking, reduced volition, cognitive impairment? Low mood Mainly manifested as significant and persistent low emotion, depressed and pessimistic. Mild cases are sullen, no pleasure, loss of interest, severe cases are in extreme pain, pessimistic and desperate, living each day like a year, life is worse than death. Typical patients' depressed mood has a rhythm of heavier in the morning and lighter at night. Slowed thinking Clinically, active speech is reduced, speaking speed is obviously slowed, voice is low, answering is difficult, severe cases communication cannot proceed smoothly. Reduced volitional activity Clinical manifestations are slow behavior, passive life, lazy, don't want to do things, don't want to contact people around, avoid social interaction. Severe cases even eating, drinking and other physiological needs and personal hygiene are ignored, even develop into not speaking, not moving, not eating, called "depressive stupor", severe patients often accompany negative suicidal ideation or behavior, 3 or more episodes need long-term treatment, even lifelong medication. So in summary the above are the symptoms of depression, If someone tells you he has depression, whether typing or speaking or behavioral cognition, all have impairments. If you really have depression you won't have any aggressiveness. You will only feel inferior, sad and depressed. Aggressive depression only has 0.1% existence. And depression costs a huge amount, you don't deserve to have it either. Stopping medication will have suicidal thoughts. Moreover, I don't wish this disease to come to anyone, I hope you are all happy. So you don't deserve to have it. Only I am lucky. 😉 And I forgot one thing, those who have nothing to do and dig into me. Checking whether this medicine is really for treating depression, I think they're really too idle. Can you find anything other than the vitamin multivitamin tablet in picture five? If you don't eat or take in food and don't take some vitamin multivitamin tablets, are you waiting to die? Anyone who has had this disease knows what every treatment is. And those who say I'm acting, if I act for you to watch will you give me a cent? Or help me buy medicine? Idiots.
It's really true that birds of a feather flock together, people are divided into groups. Sometimes a woman's sixth sense is still quite accurate. Trash is trash no matter what, no matter how you build your persona your nature is hard to change. Knowing any person from one-sided words is your most naive and stupid behavior. After all in this world, out of a hundred people not necessarily all are people, half of them are beasts, don't you think? Giving too many smiling faces spoils them all sick. When chatting with people in Shengmo you have to be careful, you never know when your words will be the reason he or she tears you apart. There are even those who stab you in the back. Keep them at a respectful distance. Morning.
If past a certain age, you are still alone. People around you will always ask, aren't you lonely alone? I think, loneliness will be there. I remember someone said: loneliness is different from solitude, solitude is a negative emotion, while loneliness is a state. How long have you been alone, have you ever had such a moment: on a summer day with pouring rain, your whole body soaked through, at that time you would feel a kind of helplessness. So people always say, a girl who always has an umbrella in her bag is because she knows no one will come to give her an umbrella when it rains, so she has to learn to take care of herself. Working hard outside alone, every time at the station you carry a heavy box by yourself, with big and small bags, you will feel a bit embarrassed, at that moment you suddenly especially want someone to accompany you. Later you smiled and continued walking forward. Slowly, you became stronger and stronger. I don't know from when, you became afraid of holidays, the grander the holiday, the lonelier you feel. Outside it's lively, you alone are cold and quiet. Like the person walking alone on the street that night under the city's brilliant neon lights, inside they will feel even more desolate. Over these years, you learned to change a light bulb alone; got used to eating and watching movies alone; even fell in love with traveling alone. You, solitary, seem to leave people only a lonely back view. But despite this, you still think being alone is nothing, it's quite good. Because you understand, compared to loneliness, you are more afraid of settling. Having experienced so much, you become clearer and clearer about what kind of life you want, and what kind of person you want to spend the rest of your life with. Maybe that person hasn't appeared yet, but you have to believe: there will always be someone who likes you. As Eileen Chang said: "I want you to know, in this world there is always a person waiting for you, no matter when, no matter where, anyway you know, there is always such a person." His appearance will make you feel that all these years of being alone were worth it, he will heal all the desolation at the bottom of your heart. Then when you are alone, work hard to make yourself better. Good night.
"I thought others respected me because I was excellent, gradually I understood, others respect me because others are excellent. Respect is a kind of goodwill, and also a kind of empathy, no matter when, don't strike, don't attack, don't ridicule, don't expose shortcomings, know how to maintain others' dignity, treat people politely from the heart. Won't be arrogant and laugh at others' difficulties; won't be haughty and poke at others' sore spots. Respect is always mutual. If you treat people with sincerity, people will treat you with sincerity, if you always consider others, people will also lend you a hand. Be a person who knows how to respect others, exchange respect for others' respect with respect, that's also a kind of success! Don't give up your own sincerity because of others' hypocrisy, don't give up your own persistence because of others' evaluations, love what you truly love, do what you truly want to do, the purpose is to enjoy yourself to the fullest. There's no need to flaunt yourself in the image of others" Good night.
I was originally a drifting person, with a thin fate and much hardship, In turmoil I met you, grateful for your kindness like meeting by chance on water. You loved a moment of joy, war smoke became a good time, With tears I toast to your longevity, wine stains cover the dust of the journey. Lamp dim dim, curtains deep deep, Pour shallow shallow, sing low low. A moment of joy, a moment of warmth. Who understands the meaning in the qin, who pities the person in the song. I am a frustrated woman, you are a proud minister, Your ambition is in the four seas, how dare I hope for eternal closeness. Thin wine — how could I truly be drunk, your heart is not my heart, Tonight we share pleasure together, tomorrow morning separated by distant ford. The world is in turmoil, the fields have many fleeing, In a moment swords will rise, where to seek your grace. Life and death in an instant, glory like floating clouds, When you return in triumph, can you remember the person before the cup. Lamp dim dim, curtains deep deep, You forget feelings, I grieve in spirit. A moment of joy, a moment of warmth, Tomorrow at the head of the Yu River, lingering rhyme buries the fragrant soul
How can I thank you? When I walked toward you, I originally wanted to harvest a wisp of spring breeze, but you gave me the whole spring. I'm grateful for the charm of this world, grateful for your existence, grateful for our acquaintance. Thank you for this gift that came from afar. Whether the gift you prepared is cheap or expensive, as long as you prepared it, it proves you care. Although we've never met, the feeling you give me is like an old friend, warm and gentle, making people feel comfortable and moved. Thank you for chatting with me every day! The most precious gift you gave me is — sincere friendship, in the galaxy of my life, like a bright star. @一位兴趣使然的神棍
Midsummer low branches, peach blossoms flying full Crimson lamp and red curtains, first meeting you, just like a heroine, just like a sorrowful performer Soft whispers soften my heart, drunk in fragrant wisps, too shy to speak, one sleep of fine rain, one sleep of wild downpour Fascinated watching the beauty's dew hang thick, holding a whip leaning lightly through Lips dot the beauty's feet, romantic in walking, romantic in sleeping too Moon full, river wind night, autumn rain enters the attic When I first saw your face, like peach petals, smiling dimples and bright eyes Lowering brows and eyes into my embrace, love sounds lingering, clothes loosening, several degrees of spring breeze, several degrees of shyness Greedily watching the youth's thin spring shirt, sighing sadly fearing parting sorrow Colorful butterfly asks the peach branch, can you think of me, can you worry for me
Women easily make a mistake in relationships, thinking that a man will always love them the way he did at the very beginning. But the reality is, in any relationship, if you leave it alone and let it grow wild, in the end it will inevitably end with the couple parting ways. Don't love too fully, extremes will reverse. When you love someone, you can't be too proactive. Love is like a balance scale, the man and woman standing at both ends should try to keep balance in every aspect as much as possible, only then can the relationship last and be stable. People are very easily spoiled. If you always act too proactively in a relationship, then over time he will take all your giving and compromises for granted. From now on, you'll be the one who has to give gifts on anniversaries, you'll be the one who gives in first after a fight, you'll still be the one who has to bear all the housework big and small… You'll find that unknowingly, this relationship seems to have become your business alone, you've been struggling to support it all by yourself, while he always turns a blind eye and sits back enjoying the results. People who love too proactively will in the end only become more and more passive and more and more humble in the relationship. I've heard a saying: "Don't rely too much on a person, he will become your habit, when parting comes, what you lose is not a person, but your spiritual pillar." Women, at no time should you entrust your life to someone else. Even if he really loves you, you still have to learn to walk independently. In this world no one can't live without someone, don't think you can't do without him. Love for you is just the icing on the cake, if he can't bring you happiness, go and fight for it yourself. Spiritual independence and economic independence, these two trump cards, women must hold them firmly in their hands. No matter how much you love a person, don't forget to care for yourself more; no matter how good he is to you, don't easily give up your own career. Always remember, in this world, only yourself is your final reliance.
The so-called threshold: if you have enough ability it's a door, if you don't have enough ability it's a sill. You envy others for being thin, others envy you for having a good stomach. You envy others for being rich, others envy you because no one asks you to borrow money. Don't always compare yourself with others. Both are lazy and gluttonous, just because their faces are different, their fates are completely different. For example cats and pigs: one is pampered, one is stabbed! There's no such thing as choice phobia, it's just because you have no money; there's no such thing as indecisiveness, it's just because you're cowardly. Only children ask why you ignore me, don't you like me anymore. Adults tacitly drift apart from each other. As people grow up, friends become fewer and fewer. A tough life needs no explanation. As long as you arrive at your destination on time, few people care whether you drive a Mercedes or a tractor. Your kindness to others is like a piece of candy, once eaten it's gone. Conversely, your badness to others is like a scar, once left it stays forever. That's human nature. If you're not outstanding enough, connections are worthless. They are not pursued, they are attracted. Only an equal exchange can get reasonable help. Lies are like lines, often recited after being memorized; truth is like a cough, mostly bursting out when it can't be suppressed. Truth or lies, can you tell them apart? People who like to gossip and make up stories behind your back have only three reasons: they haven't reached your level, they don't have what you have, and they tried to imitate your lifestyle and failed. So don't care about those gossips.
I love the roses I received, but I love you who sent the flowers even more. The gift still arrived as promised. Thank you for the surprise you gave me, thank you for meeting you, thank you for everything. The happiest thing today is nothing more than receiving your gift. You have to believe that there must be your lover in this world. Whether you are now surrounded by light and drowned in applause, or at that time you are walking alone on a cold street getting soaked by heavy rain, whether it's a morning with light snow drifting or a dusk scorched by a heat wave, he will surely cross the surging crowd in this world, he will surely walk past them and walk toward you, he will surely come to your side with a heart full of warmth and deep love in his eyes, hold you tight, he will rush to your side impatiently. If he is still young, he will surely hug you like a naughty child hogging his own toy and refusing to share it with anyone. If he is no longer young, he will surely, like a hunter returning after cutting through thorns, light a bonfire beside you, then hold you and fall asleep exhausted and at ease. He will surely find you, you have to wait. Thank you for your gift, @一位兴趣使然的神棍
Last night I unexpectedly received 999 flowers from a certain Mr., I was so happy I could fly. A few days ago I was still thinking I wanted flowers, so girls, you see, some things don't need to be said out loud — someone who cares will naturally understand, and someone who doesn't care won't understand no matter how much you hint. No matter how precious the flowers I've received before, how expensive the bouquets, today's bouquet is the most beautiful gift I've ever received, and it's also my lucky charm that brings me luck. The most precious thing is not the material things you own, but the people who stay by your side. You can't force others to love you, you can only strive to become someone worthy of love, and leave the rest to fate. I am the happiest single dog. @临窗赏雨
I don't exclude that I have the idea of showing off. I am indeed showing off, but what I'm showing off isn't who transferred money to me. It's that there really is someone willing to satisfy my lemon-spirit (envious) heart — seeing others have it, I want it too. And then being satisfied, happy and blessed. But real life is real life. Advance and retreat must have measure. Face others' feelings calmly; let alone we're just netizens, you must be calm too. Calm, calm, don't be impulsive. 😏😏 To put it bluntly: it's just that they gave too little. If they'd given more, I'd have taken it, hahaha. Just speaking the big truth. Excuse the laughter, excuse it.
“Would you kneel before the curry stick and swear to this king, to guard this king until the day we arrive at Avalon?”
Because he can't get it, so it seems especially glaring? So he's being passive-aggressive (yin-yang)? Here's a bedtime story: Long, long ago, there was a hippo. It couldn't eat grapes, so it said the grapes were sour. In a fit of anger it became a great yin-yang master. Are phones this smart now? Hippos can even type. Then they should also know Baidu. Check Baidu? Didn't we agree that after the founding of the nation, animals aren't allowed to become spirits?
I believe every girl has a shining point, has something cute and worthy of being loved. Never lose confidence again, never deny yourself again. I want to tell you ten thousand times: you will always be a treasure. Continue chasing the light of the sky, run toward beauty. Make good use of time to try, to do your best for the things you like. Don't be anxious, don't deny yourself; there's still much ahead worth looking forward to. I sincerely hope your days always have brightness, and when you smile you can think of nothing at all. What's right, persist; what's wrong, forget. The world is so vast — I wish you get what you wish for. Happy Qixi everyone. May lovers finally become family.
Through the screen I saw those words — those people I had chatted with, those people I had communicated with, with tenderness and goodwill, those people who attacked me and whom I still treated tenderly, those people I sincerely gave my sincerity to — they made everything about me public. Treated it as a joke, as laughing talk. These words, these sentences. All sharp blades that slaughter me. The visual impact on my end of the phone is enough to murder me Friends. Remember, sincerity is useless. I hate it so much. Hahaha After several days of ideological struggle, tormented again and again, I finally don't want to comfort myself anymore. You got what you wished for. Hoping for me to die, mocking me, ridiculing me. You won. Won. Won completely. Successfully pushed me into the abyss. I don't want to look back anymore. Mm. Thank you, you bunch of people, for helping me. Lending me a hand.
