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Based in: Japan · Nagoya. Height 120cm, weight 200kg, Capricorn
The Owner is very busy; yesterday all day she had no time to pay attention to the 🐶🐶… My explosive mood can't be held back… for a 🐶 who loves control and favoritism, it's like living a year in a day… Today is 520, I long for the Owner to look at me once, even without training… just say one sentence…
【Sansheng Water • Reflection】Ego, id, superego In these days while the Owner is away, the dog's restless heart……… Only by crazily reading novels to fantasize, masturbate and chat for comfort can I get a brief rest… The dog itself couldn't imagine — different from the fantasizing and masturbating before, these days the dog actually slept late several days in a row and masturbated highly frequently, ejaculating every time, yet can still keep good energy in the daytime (maybe because fitness is paused?) Tonight after lights out, the dog again intermittently masturbated twice,, this time only half-hard… forced myself to get congested and ejaculate. The dog thinks this is probably the limit of the dog's physiological desire The dog vaguely remembers reading an article that slightly mentioned: only by letting the dog's sexual desire be completely erased can the dog's sub nature, dog nature, true nature be revealed — revealed whether it's really a dog, a real sub… Almost never had…… the state is different now… instead my spirit is clearer, my brain thinks more — is the dog really a dog, or a flesh shell controlled by desire? Is the meaning of being born to be a human or to be a dog? ……………… Countless thoughts flood into my heart… in these days while the Owner is away… the dog's thinking about "I" has never been this deep… The dog began to doubt and waver… is the dog just an impulsive real person in dog skin, or a pure dog-sub with eyes full of the Owner… "Owner… are you… still there… please, Owner… correct the dog's thinking"
【Sansheng Water • Daily Life】Hair transplant… Love spicy, love fried, stay up late, eat meat, street workouts, desire… my sub nature can't be released…………… Not letting go of a single good habit that can cause hair loss 🤧🤧
【Repost】"To All New Subs Getting Started" by———Queen Devil Unknowingly, I've been a female S for two years In two years, I've seen all kinds of subs Some come in with an arrogant posture Some come in utterly respectful and reverent The longer you're an S, the more you'll have your own personality and principles So I wrote this article 1. Do you long to be conquered? 2. Why have you come? 3. What do you want? Some people blindly came in, only to find it's not what they wanted Some people came in, but they don't know why they came in Some people keep wavering, struggling and drifting Why is it like this? It's because at the start they didn't ask themselves clearly I think once you decide to become a sub You must form a sub's consciousness in thought What is a sub's consciousness? It is loyalty, following, humility, and forgetting the self If you feel you're still yourself, I think everyone who wants to enter this circle should ask themselves three questions: you have dignity and personality Then fundamentally you're not a sub Because you've violated a sub's most basic requirement What is loyalty? It is whole-hearted, single-minded, honest, faithful following of one person What is following? Physical following? No, it's spiritual following. It's a kind of entrustment, a kind of snuggling, following with no second in the heart. What is humility? This includes a lot 1. Speech must be humble; use honorifics (the most taboo in answering is using "oh, ah, uh" — you should use "yes, or the sub knows, or thank you Owner") 2. Behavior must be humble; on seeing the Owner the first reaction is to kneel; for greetings you must kowtow 3. In thought, know you're only a supporting role; the Owner is the protagonist And so on and so on........ What is forgetting the self? It is taking everything with the Owner as the center, thinking of everything for the Owner, harboring no selfish desires Remember you were born to serve the Owner, loyal to the Owner Remember you're just a dog; when the Owner arrives in person, it's a reward; when the Owner is busy, you must learn to obediently stay to the side The Owner has her own living habits and living space; you must not subjectively destroy the Owner's life If you think the Owner should accompany you and spoil you, then in thought from the start you're not a sub Because a sub gives, not takes If you take, it proves you haven't forgotten the self In a fundamental sense, you don't count as a sub, because your sub nature has deteriorated A sub's only standard is everything for the Owner Only by achieving this in thought can you become a real sub (This article is original to Mis Queen Devil. If it infringes, contact for deletion)
【Sansheng Water • Mood】 Happy holiday ✧٩(ˊωˋ*)و✧ haha Everyone celebrate together (^0^)/ together — may youthful energy last forever!
【Sansheng Water • Causes】From a personal angle, emotionally and shallowly talking about the relationship between rich upbringing and the acquired causes of "SM" (Friendly reminder: this is an affected essay, a moaning-without-illness essay, a scar-literature essay, a noon-depression essay, a long-winded running-account essay, a personal-opinion essay! Personal-opinion essay! Personal-opinion essay! If you don't like it please swipe away and don't read! Don't flame! And definitely don't repost! Corrections welcome) (Some things — my heart is unsettled, very uncomfortable, can't figure out, can't sleep, dare not ask, dare not say. Taking advantage of the internet-depression hour, writing and scribbling, passing the night) Quote • Eroticism is a product of aristocratic lifestyle. Sadomasochism is a luxury in impoverished secular life. — Li Yinhe Trigger • A few days ago I unintentionally swept past a front-row queen's profile signature: "aristocratic game… personality reshaping… money squeezing, xx do not disturb…" I can't remember exactly where I saw it. The word "aristocrat" itself has a strong class flavor; its intended meaning is obvious: people without strong economic power are not worthy of entering this circle. I don't completely agree. So, when we discuss the above question, what are we discussing? In the end it's still the mutual relationship between material and spirit in the circle. Money is the most powerful material support; SM is a twisted spiritual "faith." Extending to the theme I want to talk about, it's actually the causal influence of material rich upbringing and spiritual rich upbringing on "SM psychology." What is material rich upbringing? The material rich upbringing I mean refers to the high abundance of material one receives relative to the surrounding environment in one's living environment. "Aristocrat" or not "aristocrat"… what the hell What is spiritual rich upbringing? I'd like to give spiritual rich upbringing this definition: generally, after material is satisfied or richly provided, the enormous abundance of the spiritual level. Is SM really an "aristocratic game"? Talk about Europeans' high freedom and Africans' sub nature… (off topic, won't talk, and there's a suspicion of racial discrimination).. The people of the most developed countries count as "aristocrats," right? China's per capita income, for Norway and Switzerland, is just small change, but SM (the SM I mean is not the mainstream European-American SM that seeks more physical stimulation release, and even less the criminal-natured "SM" — this is essentially different!) culture appears more in Japan and China and such places, rather than in Norway and Switzerland! This is not a population base and probability problem, even less a so-called money problem! Japan is because Japanese people's thinking and exploration of human nature and sex is inherently extremely deep. For us, it's mostly because the human nature suppressed for a thousand years is released, plus the rapidly enriched material contrast — it's material rich upbringing with seriously deficient spiritual rich upbringing that caused it! Writing here, I suddenly thought, this really echoes that sentence from the 19th Congress elaborating the change in society's principal contradiction: the contradiction between the ever-growing need for a better life and unbalanced and inadequate development. Ah, I can't help but sigh in passing at the leader's true insight That year I alone tested into the county town. Only then did I emotionally recognize the diversity of people and the colorful material world. I met a deskmate diverted from a big city to my side — let me call him A for now. At that time I had only inexplicable curiosity and envious appreciation for A. Completely different from me, A was sunny, loved making friends, witty and humorous, loved speeches, extremely high EQ, without so many negative emotions; the only shortcoming was being silly with IQ in arrears. Last year after the epidemic situation improved I went back and met A. A had just found a job and complained sadly; only 4k salary, and in spare time also worked as a tutor to earn extra money, but I could still feel A's inner fervor. He was still that youth of the past, without a single trace of change. Only many years after meeting him did I know that feeling's adjective is called worldview — a very upright worldview; called luck — heaven's grace; called life attitude — an excellent life attitude. I know, no one in the circle possesses this excellence; real circle people can only huddle for warmth in invisible dark corners. A possesses the world's most precious wealth, which is that kind of rich upbringing. From the perspectives of developmental psychology and psychoanalysis, childhood experiences influence a whole life. The grandmaster-level Freud also said childhood experiences, even if forgotten, will become a subconscious, permanently influencing a person's life. Does that mean… for most real SM people trapped in the SM circle, the fact of severe lack of spiritual rich upbringing has long been set, hard to untie their own SM knot? End • Don't misunderstand, I'm not denying what Boss Li Yinhe said at the start; I just don't agree with some people's views, because Li Yinhe also said: a truly free life has two elements — one is not being constrained by material, the other is not being tempted by material.
【Sansheng Water • Following the Trend】About the hot topic: a certain S and sub's accidental confrontation (Busy and tired all day, online in my leisure, a very good male S friend told me a certain rollover incident happened. Quite curious, so I learned a bit about it.) I even think there's fundamentally no need to bring this issue out for discussion — a soulless SM game, whatever happens I'm not surprised Root cause, root cause, root cause: profit-making erotic-item livestreams. The S is not a pure S, the sub is not a real sub, even for a session they need auxiliary drugs — let alone resistance happening… if a reversal push happened I'd also have no waves, and might even want to eat melon (watch the drama) Another small possibility, speculating wildly: hype and炒作. After all a sequel also came out. Of course it doesn't exclude a coordinated effort to eliminate negative impact and regain fans. I generally don't watch this kind… a very familiar-looking S. I'm not quite clear whether she and that S who specializes in training toilet subs are the same person End. Side story - personal experience talk: I do have a "first-time complex," and I've also had one real-life session experience. My personal main reason also includes the S's experience, leading to a poor experience. Afterwards I felt abnormal regret, guilty that my momentary sperm-brain impulse gave my first real-life SM experience to a 💰 S…… Sorry, my true Owner in the future — I'm an unclean 🐶…… I also hope that real subs among newcomers later, although seeking an Owner is very hard, must not "be eager for quick success" Statement - not opposition! I just don't agree with 💰 erotic-item S. Everyone has their own aspirations; I also respect the diversity of the SM circle, the differentiation result of things developing. I understand everyone does things with their own reasoning "Owner… 🐶🐶 truthfully reporting my thoughts…… haven't been real-life with you yet… 🐶🐶 is so worried you'll be affected by this…… slutty 🐶……"
【Sansheng Water • View】Now the topic of fertility… so much, let me chat a couple sentences casually At the start of the year Zheng Shuang's surrogacy was pushed to the headlines… now the three-child is also at the crest of the wave.. The second season of the Chinese anime "Ling Cage" is coming out soon; now recalling the first season of Ling Cage, I find its world-building actually already, from the anime field, emitted a bit of a vanguard flavor for the 90s generation who will now be affected by the three-child policy: "people are unequal," "the dust people's inherently inferior gene defects," "lower subjects have no reproductive rights" It intends to tell everyone they should have the right to reproduce. The two words "rights" and "obligations" are often spoken together, and people's subconscious will feel reproduction is a right ≈ reproduction is an obligation. More directly, the subtext can be understood as: fighting for reproductive rights wasn't easy, so hurry up and give birth.. But, why do so many people not want to give birth, especially people in the circle, even less want to give birth. Reproduction = propagation; propagation is a basic instinct of living things. SM people even more lack the instinct of life's aspects Where's the problem? Why, I can't figure it out? Is it "Buddha-like"? Is it material pressure? Unwilling to bear responsibility? A low-desire society? Genes not wanting to give birth? A silent resistance from deep in the heart, utterly disappointed in society? Afraid to bear responsibility?…… Stop reproducing… don't even want to marry… but as a social person, a family member, I have to face the secular world and face the world… Let me quote that overused soup: "Born as a human, I'm very sorry" In the next life may I be born as a 🐶 sub, feeling the feather-like lightness of life
【Sansheng Water • Douyin】 This woman might not look like a good person.. should be a sub-S girl 🧐🧐 For the first time I finally swiped on Douyin to a video that can slightly touch on SM 😷😷 ………autistic………
【Sansheng Water • Boredom】Haven't played Honor of Kings in a long time; old games or new games, my interest in games is getting fainter. While the season hasn't ended, bored, during Dragon Boat Festival let me rank up a wave At the very start I only wanted the Morning Star Envoy 😓 Didn't want anything else either. In these last two days, some European luck or something — in the middle, N crystals came out… It's always Empress Wu Mei who is the noblest ~ Your Majesty ~ kneel and worship the Empress
【Sansheng Water • Writing】That feeling came up; recalling that kill-matt era, I couldn't help but smile with relief at my own silly self. I dug out books I liked many, many, many years ago. Metaphysical, chuunibyou like a mental patient. I liked Guo Jingming's gorgeous writing, liked Zhang Ailing's peerless desolation, liked Li Yinhe's sharp analysis, liked Kundera's neutral speculation……… Looking at those underlined lines and the words left behind, now I don't remember those contents at all, I don't even dare be sure whether those were traces I left. Even if back then, in my restless age with sperm on the brain, I read purely for the depictions of love, sex and SM to fantasize, its core undeniably fits with my current thinking. The prototype that shaped intimate relationships, sex, love and SM attributes This is probably the power of writing — imperceptibly leaving an indelible mark deep in your soul
【Sansheng Water • Cracking】Wuwu why treat me like this……… CF is too low… I played OW for a few days in high school and it wasn't fun either Used 35G of phone data just to try whether I could get into the current hot FPS, starting with PUBG (chicken dinner)… In the end, after finally installing it and clicking start it errored. Too hard 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
【Sansheng Water • Pause】Suddenly I thought of evolutionary psychology. Sigh — I've always wanted to systematically learn about psychology; procrastination in its late stage, still no blueprint set, but it's indeed not wrong — I indeed kept "wanting" to learn… Finals are coming again soon… my slowly castrated fighting spirit — nothing to be at odds with myself about; being at an eighth-rate school is quite nice too; with a tiny bit of effort I can rank in the department, and have lots of time to do what I want Sleep in class; sooner or later I'll have to make it up What should be shelved continues to be shelved Really, it echoes that chicken-soup line: "if you think of it and don't do it right away, then never do it again" The next almost one month…… Still I must calm my heart and first cram to avoid failing,, Goodbye Goodbye Goodbye Goodbye
【Sansheng Water • Repost】As expected it was blocked 😭😭 I'm cracking.. I'll never dare again Original text: #MyStoryExperience#【Sansheng Water • Improvisation】Forgetting, looking for a novel (Friendly daily reminder: this is an impromptu whimsical essay, an impromptu entertainment essay, an affected essay, a moaning-without-illness essay, a scar-literature essay, a noon-depression essay, a long-winded running-account essay, a personal-opinion essay! Personal-opinion essay! Personal-opinion essay! If you don't like it please swipe away and don't read! Don't flame! Don't repost! Corrections welcome) Main text Recently, nostalgically flipping through books I read long ago, many moments were a flash of inspiration — suddenly remembering a certain plot passage, suddenly thinking of its similar connection with the cause of my SM, which is clearly so important, yet I just can't remember where I saw it or when I saw it, can't find it. Habitually when reading I almost never remember novel characters' names, and I can't remember the book title either, yet it's too important and I really want to write some feelings… I only vaguely remember that novel's main storyline was like this — if I remember correctly: The setting should be after the American Civil War. The white male protagonist's side, the planter Southern Confederacy, was defeated; the new generation of Northern bourgeois states took power, and Black slaves were liberated. The reason I don't use the circle word "Mu (sub)" and instead keep the word "slave" is very necessary. In my understanding, the "slave" here is a person who should be free but is oppressed by inhuman capital, while the "Mu" spoken of in the modern circle is a person already free whose heart longs to be ruled. The two are essentially different. Then the male protagonist and his daughter were exiled to the bottom layer, living in the same village as the recently liberated Black slaves who made up the majority of the population. The male protagonist had been accustomed to the superior "slave owner" class life; that character of toying with others was already carved into this white man's bones. Past fifty years of age, he would still go and humiliate the village women. The daughter was a kind, gentle, cultivated modern woman. Fortunes turn; a tiger fallen to the plains is bullied by dogs. Disaster in the end couldn't be avoided; the revenge fury of Black racial discrimination finally descended on the daughter and the male protagonist. Before, Black people were the "male protagonists'" slaves, and they had long been liberated; times are different now. Sadistic desire reached its peak; "revenge" began, and their targets were the old-generation white people without status, abandoned by the new generation of whites. My God, how exhilarating and stimulating that was — my Black cock forcibly entering the tender white hole, thrusting wantonly! The relationship between them was like the Germany defeated in WWI and the Germany that launched WWII, like Jews and German Nazis. Strong Black robbers broke into the aged, powerless male protagonist's home, repeatedly and cruelly raping, sexually assaulting and abusing the daughter. That had much more plot flavor than SM videos. But what was the result? That is also where the "absurdity" lies — not necessarily Stockholm syndrome — in the end the daughter actually came to like this abuse, becoming the sex slave of those who were once the slaves of her father's generation of whites, and she herself didn't resist, even willingly accepted the humiliation……… What does this show? Precisely what am I thinking? First, "thirty years the river flows east, thirty years the river flows west" (Stop! Halt! I don't believe in superstition! Nor am I a dogmatist! Or as that saying goes, with a bit of Marxist philosophy flavor is also fine — the law of development of the negation of the negation): Black slaves oppressed for a hundred years ultimately became the "S," abusing, ruling, taking revenge on and humiliating white people. The fathers' generation's "S" and the children's generation's "Mu." Tens of thousands of years ago, matriarchal society existed for thirty to forty thousand years, and finally ten thousand years ago patriarchal society arrived. Today's "rising unstoppably" of female rights and the appearance of more and more male subs… all illustrate it. As long as you observe life carefully, you'll discover some astonishingly similar things. Like that chicken-soup line: "what's lost will always come back in another way." Second, it's personal. That similarity… my emotional resonance with my own sub attribute… My father is an extremely strong-willed person; obstinate, insistent on his own views and dead-set on his reasoning, a breast of "hot blood" made him allow no one else's opposing opinions……… alright, stop, too much said… let me just end directly: I spent my childhood in an environment with no one supervising me yet with a great sense of security, not like a family yet still counting as a greenhouse family. My parents instilled in me only the monotony of "study well." Teachers stuck on me the "benchmark" labels of kind and loving, helpful, quiet and obedient. My animal nature was ground flat. A living environment and personality utterly different from my parents' — strong versus weak In circle words, it can be called "contrast," I suppose. A digression: I suddenly somewhat understand circle friends who are both S and sub. Speaking small, from a psychology angle it should probably be called "the influence of the family of origin on SM personality"; speaking big, this is the cycle under a huge time span, the mutual conversion of S and sub. Kundera, talking about Nietzsche's "eternal recurrence," said life repeats infinitely, frozen in place, forever unable to escape the vortex of eternal recurrence. Then, what choice can be made? Easter egg • Attached is a training image I just collected that I super like (Thanks to Fulu for sharing)
【Sansheng Water • Login】It's got that flavor now #exam#big sister#temperament#review#Queen#🤣
【Sansheng Water • Hospital】Half a month ago my cold got better but I've still been coughing and coughing ever since… scared me a bit, worried it was a certain corona… … … but this result that came out is also quite uncomfortable………………………because Other things don't matter… Mouth, throat, tongue… haven't been used yet, how can there already be a problem… could it be that as a sub, the only place of use value is going to be ruined too 😭😭😭😭 why why why, sigh, so annoyed I want to cry
【Sansheng Water • Nationwide Celebration, Happy Birthday to the Sickle and Hammer】On "Radical" and "Weak" (A necessary advance note: hurriedly written in one night, a trash essay, draft essay, unfinished essay — if you don't like it don't read, to avoid wasting others' time. Long text with no substance warning. This text talks about radical and weak; this radical and weak is not that radical and weak — it's radical and weak in a broad sense. In my understanding, its connection with SM is not entirely the same (actually, precisely speaking, it should be the connection between sub and weak, since I'm not an S and have no feeling for that); it's also like the connection between two entangled photons in quantum mechanics — seemingly separated by thousands of light-years and completely unrelated, yet with an extremely profound connection. Those who resonate with it will surely feel it Today, oh, it should be yesterday — yesterday was a special day, I must write something; suddenly I thought of these ideas. All day absent-minded, yet thinking about this, composing this article all day. Really crazy! I can't preview anything! It's over, I'll fail! Exams start next Monday! Not throwing myself wholeheartedly into previewing, what am I doing, ah ah! Until midnight I hurriedly wrote; the time point also passed the 1st. Writing whatever comes to mind, no formatting, no flair, messy and disorderly, prolix and formless, only valuing sharing my personal one-sided views and ideas. Finally,, a personal one-sided opinion essay! Do not repost!! Do not repost!!! Do not repost!!!! Important things said three times!!!!) 1. Cutting in from the analogy of left and right factions of political parties (hereafter zd) to look at SM — the similarities between zd left-right factions and SM personalities Usually speaking, the left represents "radical," representing proactive change; the right represents "weak," representing passive conservatism. In our Party's hundred years of development there have inevitably been errors of the "right," big and small; the light ones are hard to investigate deeply, the heavy ones are recorded in history enough to warn posterity. Facts prove relying on the "left" is the direction that should be taken, the general trend. Having a "left" personality is my aspiration and envy; pity that I have to admit with difficulty that I am the exact opposite… Viewed one-sidedly, a sub's personality is like the "right's" weakness — no need for more nonsense. As for S, after all I'm not an S; an S should be the radical one who "transforms" the sub through training. Our Party has always positioned itself as "left," because the "right" itself is wrong, not conforming to the laws of development, destined to be abandoned and eliminated by the times. From the grand pattern and the span of great historical time, the "left" will eventually defeat the "right." A moderate "left" is perfect; it dominates the future and transforms the world. From this angle, why in DS the S is the leader and dominator and the sub is the dominated weak one and submitter can easily be connected and thought through with Darwinian thought Right, sub, sub (Mu), slave, submit, weak 2. Looking at "radical" and "weak" from the two most admired awesome well-known revolutionary figures in modern Party history, from my perspective This year is a glorious year, a year of celebration, a big political year. Although inside I resist a bit, in my spare time I occasionally force myself to proactively spend a few minutes to deeply understand Party history, read a "On Party History," carefully savor the film "The Founding of a Party," skim a few episodes of "The Awakening Age." Last month I went to Nagoya; unfortunately the memorial hall wasn't open that day, so I didn't see the Red Boat itself. But at the center of South Lake I still paid respects at the site, to the memorial Red Boat on the surface of South Lake. I really want to mention — although I already knew its smallness, when I truly saw it, I still felt it was much smaller than I imagined. It was actually that small, small to only the size of two or three rubber boats. Recalling a hundred years ago, the contrast is felt here — China's most outstanding and excellent group of people squeezed into such an inconspicuous small boat discussing China's greatest and most glorious matters. Involuntarily I felt as if I were in that turbulent, bumpy, uncertain external environment of that year, my heart surging. Who said it — this is the birthplace of the Chinese Communist Party Back to the main topic. First is Xiuer. When Xiuer is mentioned, most people's impression must be "weak." Too many people misunderstand Xiuer; those who haven't deeply understood him generally think he was a weak, incompetent, compromising right-wing capitulator. But those who truly understand him know his personality is actually not like this; on the contrary, in his bones there's a kind of "radical," but it's a solitary, self-conceited, unruly "radical," or rather, a "radical" lacking reason. But why was he labeled "weak"? I think, first, because his excessive passion and the solitary pride common to scholar-intellectuals suppressed his "radical," bold, rational ability to solve practical problems; second, because he received the "enemy's" favor. For the greater good, he had to compromise and obey the Comintern, had to be under Sun Wen's "control," had to rely on a certain Jingwei getting out of prison; third, in his bones he wasn't purely "radical," lacking political means — extremely put, I even think he simply wasn't suited to engage in politics, because he was more like a true intellectual-class angry youth. A top-tier literati, an AD who face-checks the grass, stubborn and paranoid, with sharp edges — plainly said, lacking sense — a manifestation of "weakness." So Xiuer is a "radical" one, yet at the same time a "weak" one… destined in old age, like Du Fu, an old steed, poor and sick, dying in depression The Premier. All too familiar; same as above, no need for excessive words. Counted among the earliest batch of founders. Whether from the very beginning or later, from the excessively radical leftist "Trio" to Brother Mao's "New Trio"… his political life was always in important positions, to various negotiations and diplomacy, to confronting the Gang of Four, to "radically" bearing a lifelong heaven-heavy burden of responsibility, then choosing the lightness of life to "softly" and lightly leave forever… Compared to Xiuer, the same is the same ambition; the difference is Xiuer was destined to be imperfect, while the Premier is recognized as accomplished, the greatest. In my eyes, neither is more anything; they are equally great. Xiuer is imperfect yet, for himself, "perfect." What do I want to express — the universally recognized greatest, immortal people are "weak," and also "radical," but ultimately "weak." Their nature is "weak" yet they dared, for the sake of "weak" people, to bear a huge burden and become "radical." The Premier's immortal greatness lies here: choosing to "abandon the self" to stand on the stage of history for others, working diligently until death. "This is called a true man" From a personal angle, compared to the greatest Premier, I admire Xiuer a bit more — just as Lu Xun, who at the zhuazhou ritual refused to find me, said — "They will never be satisfied with society; what they always feel is pain; what they always see are flaws; and they prepare for future sacrifice; society also becomes beautiful because of them" 3. Clearing the name of the weak If a census were done, what labels would the weak be tagged with? Sick? Weak and small? Disappointing? Decadent? Perverted? Moralistic? Loser? Disgusting? Pretentious? Affected? Deserving it? Kind?……… More, surely, would be strange looks; more would surely be derogatory… First I must affirm the views of people hostile to the weak, to avoid being accused of distorting mainstream values. I love my country. Why could the Party walk through a hundred years? Why could the Chinese people stand up from under iron hooves and reach today? This is all thanks to a kind of "radical" excellent traditional culture in the bones of the Chinese nation — self-improvement without cease. Then from human nature, the animal side of humans is like this — rejecting the different. Toward those unlike oneself, not so friendly, not so tolerant… But humanity is humanity entirely because of the existence of feelings. Feelings, ah, developing and diverging 360 degrees, will also surely have values running opposite; nobody needs to stand on the high ground of universal values to accuse, criticize or even attack the opposing side. The radical ones — indisputably, in personality terms you are the winners of natural selection in the development and evolution of human animality. The weak ones — living weakly, nobody has the right to accuse them; everyone has their own yearned-for way of living. It's as if now the notion that upon graduation one must enter a big city to struggle has become a label of positivity and upward striving, leading to young people who don't want to go to Beijing, Shanghai, Guangzhou and those big cities but choose to stay in small towns being tagged with what labels? Decadent and degenerate… at a young age afraid of hardship and fatigue… not thinking of progress… Every time someone fiercely criticizes the weak with words like "you dare not go struggle, you must go strive!" I have a kind of heartfelt nausea; I feel more deeply this society's sickness, this society's unhealthiness… Why can SM only stay in a shameful dark corner — not only because the state doesn't recognize it, but why exactly? Why did Zhang Xifeng of Hengshui High School, before the college entrance exam, so emotionally shout "I am just a country pig from the countryside, and I aspire to root up the cabbages of the big city"? Why? Why? Why? Still don't understand? I'm not against radical people, but those who chose radicalism should give those who chose weakness a bit more tolerance, a bit more respect. Consider it begging those standing on the "high ground" accusing and attacking the weak: give them a way to live, let the inherently fragile weak live a little easier! You can advocate your positivity, but please don't attack others' weakness! "Advise you to be kind"! Arguing from the reverse side, with examples effective for radicals: are the weak necessarily not recognized by society? Lu Yong, Wang Jue, Bai Fangli, Zhang Fuqing… those individuals, the weak of the normal world in my understanding — they are representatives of the weak contributing to society; those individuals are the most worthy of respect, at least for me. Accusing subs… The weak in Chai Jing's writing… 4. The "Radical Weak" formula Background and origin big family, landlord family. …"Radical Weak" type… No conclusion - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Finally. Little sickle and hammer, happy birthday!! Thousands of years from now, the utopia in More's writing will surely be realized by you!
July 2, 2021 Be quiet for a while… although before we met I'd already been preparing for separation, and my selfish main goal was achieved, still inevitably my emotions switch tracks Not the calm in the plan, nor the predicted sadness An inexplicable feeling, like a sense of emptiness… a sense of nothingness…
【Sansheng Water • Confusion】My blood should be fine, right?
【Sansheng Water • Happy Mood Day One】I'm back, my great Shandong! Happy, here I come! Beer festival, here I come! Shandong Airlines' fighter jet, bump even more violently
【Sansheng Water • Exception】The difference between newly-rising female S and the previous generation of veteran female S — actually you only need to chat a few sentences to discover it The latter generally have a kind of Tai Chi power, a most-soft core, calm like water amid the world of dust, the quiet healing of using softness to overcome strength. When you selfishly dump negative emotions on them, they can always act like a highly respected old scholar, listening to your story and emotions, giving guidance, even spending a lot of their own time helping you analyze and propose… These days I've been looking for the so-called cause and result of myself, making myself neurotic… Now thinking about it, what meaning do those have, what's the meaning of asking so many questions? Like a bystander, a person who's been through it, calmly watching a middle-school girl who knows nothing experience her first naive heartbreak and grieve desperately. Now my brain is normal, some things I couldn't figure out suddenly show their essence. Most persistent uncontrollable emotions — that's just a manifestation of immaturity, just not having experienced enough. The future is promising
【Sansheng Water • Ideal】Chatting a bit about my ideal life and future society Actually, what is the most, most, most ideal life I can think of? It should be: able to not be bound or limited by any social relations, any, any, any. With peace of mind completely hand myself over to a lifelong Owner; lifelong unmarried and childfree, or a formal marriage with a female sub of the lifelong Owner; temporarily retaining a large degree of social functions; by age 30, with the 500–600 thousand I've saved alone as basic security, sell the third-tier house, go to a small county town with stable higher income, low cost of living, basically complete infrastructure, no need for a subway, smooth traffic, slow pace; not limited by material things nor tempted by material things; completely begin a sub's life (Recently my family keeps urging marriage and forcing blind dates. I also know clearly the consequences of refusal are serious. Suddenly I realize I'm no longer an 18-year-old kid… but I've rarely considered marriage; everything is quite sudden and catches me off guard. Isn't the reason for marriage just that walking alone is lonely so two people support and help each other to walk together? If a person lives quite freely alone, isn't it OK not to marry? Clearly for some individuals, two people living together is very tiring and even worse — then what's the meaning of their marriage?) Main text • Ideal future That is a human society where productivity has reached positive infinity; Politics, states, classes no longer exist; No distinction of race, the world is greatly integrated; Artificial intelligence technology is highly developed and completely controllable; Humanity has found in the universe a planet more suitable for human habitation than in Liu Cixin's writing, with resources hard to exhaust; No framework of marriage, only a free and diverse life choice called "love" — choosing lust or choosing any other way of life, no blame, no discrimination… anything is OK; The human world is divided into two dimensions: one is adults' First World, the other is a minors' Secondary World located on the other side of a wormhole, with productivity a thousand years behind the adult world; In terms of reproduction, in the Secondary World there's a complete set of high-intelligence cloning machines like Tsinghua's Huazhibingzhi, simulated humans helping humanity combine fertilized eggs, like the Lighthouse in Ling Cage selecting the most suitable gene reproductive cells to combine; Raised by intelligent robots, the underage humans of the Secondary World will freely and comprehensively develop with the help of intelligent AI, and after adulthood enter the fully developed adult humans' First World to freely and independently choose their own lives; Humans have the right to choose not to reproduce and lengthen DNA telomeres for eternal life, or choose to provide reproductive cells for the Secondary World and then choose the lightness of life and naturally accept the body's extinction. Ah ~ this is Nagoya
【Sansheng Water • Pain Mask】Subs who pursue female supremacy, please be informed: exposing someone — gender: a self-proclaimed female S… extremely scheming male GAY… impossible to guard against… see the image Well……… I'm very against people who publicly expose others; I've never exposed anyone myself. I've always believed the SM circle is diverse and respect all choices. But I can't tolerate deceptive behavior. Scamming money isn't hateful; scamming feelings is the most hateful. I also have a bit of responsibility and am willing to do my own insignificant, almost ineffective little things to purify the SM circle environment. I'm even willing to pin this so other female-supremacy subs can see it and take warning not to have their feelings played with Here's what happened: in my youth I lived in Nagoya for a few years, which counts as the same city, Nagoya. Unintentionally I saw a "female S" with thousands of followers in Nagoya. Added as friend — for me we chatted very congenially, and I held great fantasies about the other party. Later I heard a voice message "she" sent and found it was actually a man — precisely, a male voice! At first I didn't believe it and told myself it should be an FQ owner, it's fine. So I pursued and asked to confirm whether it's male or female. The other party was always ambiguous, even saying "regardless of male or female, with your attitude I won't take you." True and false, false and true — one moment saying they're male and telling me to leave quickly; hearing me say I'd expose "her" and tell her not to play with other subs' feelings, the next moment saying they're female… putting on an act, making themselves cloudy and foggy… and putting on an act is itself a very bad attitude, an extreme disrespect to others That sense of loss of mine……… really…… some LG (gay men), I know there are quite a few G who scam training videos; those who for their own selfish desires even play with subs' feelings…… very excessive I think this 17-year veteran user's Shengmo account must have been hacked or sold. A suspicious user, infinitely following back; now it's a male G scammer using it. Please be informed Still that sentence: the truth test of the SM circle is reality. Directly choosing to meet in a busy area and chat freely is more reliable than anything.
【Sansheng Water • Ah ah ah】 Today is an important day. A day to break fixed, solidified thinking patterns My precious, completely ample, long-term, all-day time to accept real-life training sessions is only a little over a month left, and the time with all my energy to use in the S-M circle is also not much. But still there's no suitable one who can do real life. I also blame myself for positioning myself too unclearly. Starting today, I'll wholeheartedly consider practicing real-life sessions, because only real life makes it easier to gain true knowledge, easier to meet the ideal S, easier to see clearly what I truly want One sentence woke me up. The veteran queen was right: "You always need to enjoy what real-life SM is like; you can't always fantasize, right?" All S who have been in the circle a long time but haven't found a sub and still don't quit the circle share one common point — they're "Buddha-like" (laid-back), just the degree of "Buddha" differs. In my understanding, being Buddha-like is different from a life attitude; Buddha-like is not a compliment, actually not even a neutral word, it should even be a derogatory word. The essence of being Buddha-like is actually not getting the ideal sub you want, while abandoning dialectical methodology and not analyzing or solving the difficult problems encountered on the way to realizing the ideal, using the thought of "go with fate, Buddha-like" to numb yourself: "what's predestined to come will always come; what's not meant to come can't be forced" Gradually I realized a terrifying thing: my own "first-time complex" in the SM circle — "dedicating my most precious real-life experience to the purest S" — may itself be a mistake. It ignores the absolute testability of real-life practice, and I shamelessly thought spiritual purity was supreme and felt pure, which is actually extremely stupid: the energy cost of sincerely seeking an Owner is too great, and the after-effects of failure are the chronic poison named "Buddha-like" slowly spreading and eroding inside my heart. These days I almost fell into the trap of being Buddha-like
【Sansheng Water • 2021.7.19 • Commemoration • Milestone • Soul Insignia】(Deleted and reposted) "Etchings Into the Soul" (Reposted article whose original author can't be found * Sansheng Water's long and careful edits) (Honestly I don't quite dare use branding photos… the review is getting stricter and stricter… it's getting harder and harder to pass review… comic and anime images can't pass; last time a huge batch was deleted… this time I've cropped the images to this size; if it's still deleted that's too much, ahh, review team please let it pass. Oh oh oh, wish Shengmo develops better and better!! Shengmo is awesome!! Shengmo is the strongest!!) (At 12 o'clock the Owner finished eating and came back and said to the dog, "Not asleep yet!" "Yes, sleeping right away"… and as a result until now I'm still excited and can't sleep… If tomorrow I get up later than the Owner and don't have time to report this matter… the Owner first sees a post sent at 4 a.m., will I be punished to death…) Main text: "Etchings Into the Soul" You kneel on both knees and begin kissing my feet, cleaning my high heels. You keep this posture, your tongue constantly moving in and out, until I'm satisfied. I hold a bag in my hand containing those "toys" you like. I told you, I prepared a little surprise for you. I spent a long time preparing these surprises for you. For three days straight, I wore the same pair of pink panties. The crotch part of these panties is cotton. Before wearing them I sprinkled a little of my favorite perfume on them. After wearing them, I put them into a small plastic bag and sealed it to preserve the scent. I ordered you to go to the bedroom and take off your clothes; you quickly obeyed and crawled in. I went back to the car and took out a spreader bar nearly 1 meter long. Walking into the bedroom, I saw you naked, kneeling there in the high-standard kneeling posture I usually require and train you in, your expression somewhat expectant, somewhat nervous. You looked at the spreader bar in my hand, your eyes widening in surprise. I smiled and told you you were going to try some fresh tricks. Seeing your physiological reaction that you couldn't hide, my smile deepened. I said in my heart, "You'll have suffering coming soon, little slave!" I handed you the spreader bar and told you to cuff it to your ankles. You stretched your head and opened your mouth to take it; I teasingly didn't let go right away. You looked at me in confusion; on my face you only saw a meaningful smile. You took the spreader bar and the leather ankle cuffs, locked the cuffs on your own ankles, then attached them to both ends of the spreader bar. Your legs spread apart, you stood there looking at me, waiting for my next command. I took out a leather collar, handed it to you, and ordered you to put it on. Then I took leather handcuffs out of the bag. After bending your arms behind your back, I cuffed you. Next, I found a belt, buckled one end to the iron ring at the back of your collar, the other end to your handcuffs, pulled it tight with force, then I tied the belt to the chain hanging from the ceiling. You could only hold your upper body ramrod straight, unable to make a sound, otherwise you'd be choked by the collar. Like this, you were forced to stand straight upright, just like a clothes rack. I found the bag containing the worn panties, opened it, took out the panties. It had been inside for some time; the mixed smell of lewd fluid dried on it and a little holy water was quite intoxicating. I gently put the panties over your head, the "used" crotch covering your nose. You breathed deeply, inhaling the fragrance of the lewd fluid and perfume into your body. Your little brother is now hard as a stone. The panties covered your eyes, just like a blindfold. I gently stroked your little brother and its two oval companions; you trembled under my gentle touch. I followed your arrow-like erect penis up to its head, playing with it, using one finger to rub that groove. A small crystal drop seeped out; my finger dipped in it and continued caressing your little brother. Your sensation is so sensitive and wonderful. Even as you lose yourself in this feeling, you know very clearly that with me you will never be allowed to orgasm 🌊 or ejaculate — only to infinitely enjoy while being infinitely tormented, infinitely approaching the extreme point of stimulation, that feeling of unfulfilled desire. It's time to wake you up. My hand slowly wandered to your scrotum and pinched it with my sharp fingernails. You let out a soft moan, your head twisting to the side. Then I tightly clipped a pair of nipple clamps connected by an iron chain onto your nipples; your breathing became rapid and heavy. I told you I was going to play some new tricks with your body, and you would have no room to resist at all. You are completely helpless under my control. Suddenly, you feel something warm smeared on your little brother and its two friends. Your face covered with my panties, breathing my scent, you simply can't guess what exactly has been smeared on you. I pulled your scrotum so the skin spread out, and you felt a hard, cold object like steel sliding over your skin. Your little brother immediately went limp; you mumbled a few words vaguely beneath the panties. You realized I was shaving your pubic hair. You whimpered and begged, trying to move your body, but the restraints all over you made you unable to move; you understood any resistance was futile. Blind flailing choked you with your own collar, so you had to stop moving again and continue pleading. I let go of your scrotum and stood up, took the panties off your head, crumpled them into a ball and stuffed them into your mouth, and put on a ball gag. Now, you couldn't say a single word. I started again, grabbing your scrotum, shaving off the hair on it. I slowly scraped off the scrotal hair, then the hair on the penis. Thoughts kept flashing through your mind, wondering whether I would cut you. The shaving was victoriously completed. I stepped back a few paces, admiring your smooth, uncovered private parts. I told you I have a very special new "toy" custom-made specially for you. This slave insignia was designed for you by the finest SM branding-iron design-and-make artist, collaborating to satisfy my needs, and manufactured after soliciting opinions from many sides. This is a set of branding irons. I'll heat them on the stove, then brand the place I just shaved. I calmly watched you, shocked by my words. You couldn't believe I was serious, and you were so helpless; now nothing could stop me. I described the details to you exhaustively, savoring the fear and panic descending upon you. I'll first use ice cubes to numb your skin, then apply local anesthesia to reduce the pain. The raised parts of this set of branding irons are half a centimeter high, enough to brand the mark deeply into your body. While I'm doing it you simply cannot stop me. I explained to you that your pubic hair will eventually grow back, covering the brand, but the brand will remain permanently. Once you offend me and deserve punishment, I'll shave off that hair again and let this brand remind you of my authority over you — someone said, a person's cruelty is his authority. If you obey me well and serve me comfortably, I'll allow your hair to cover up the brand. Only when I need to remind you to submit will I shave you again. I know branding may hurt very much, but I will never have the thought of stopping. I took out the ice and anesthetic; the branding irons would be heated on the stove. The raised letters on the branding irons are nearly half a centimeter high, so the brand will sink deeply into the flesh. I placed the ice a little above the root of your little brother… After numbing you for 5 minutes, I put some anesthetic on this place. Then I mounted the branding iron on a handle and heated them on the stove until they glowed red. Your eyes, full of terror, opened wide; your mouth strained to make pleading sounds. However, now nothing can stop things from continuing; your struggling can only make the collar tighten around your throat, choking your breath. I walked back to your side and smeared on some more anesthetic. Without any nonsense, I pressed the branding iron tightly onto your skin until it cooled. You tensed the belt on your neck, yet had to maintain a posture in which you could breathe. The panties and the ball gag stuffed in your mouth blocked your screams. I removed the branding iron, then smeared on your brand some burn medicine, anti-inflammatory medicine and a series of other medicines. You were left alone on the floor until the most painful time slowly passed… I made you clearly realize that you are my private property, and for the rest of your life your body will bear my brand. When you finally relaxed, I gave you some burn medicine, telling you to apply some every day within a week, so the wound heals as soon as possible. A week later, the blisters and scabs will have subsided, and this brand will conspicuously remain on your body, permanently. Once the hair grows long again, it will cover the brand; only you and I know of its existence. It will hide beneath the hair, unless one day you are told that I need to expose it to remind you of your place. When your pain slowly eased, when you accepted this fact, I untied your restraints and kicked you into the bathroom. I told you to make the water hotter, wash your face well and brush your mouth. You reached out to take the soap; it slipped from your hand to the floor; you weakly bent down and picked it up. After washing, you staggered and crawled out. I ordered you to return to the bedroom; you immediately crawled in, afraid, kneeling there looking at me. I locked the shackles back onto you — legs spread, hands cuffed tight in front of your body. I sat in the armchair and told you you'd performed well, and now I'd give you a reward: allowing you to perform oral service for me, until I was satisfied and thoroughly comfortable, then stop. Your little brother got energetic again. You crawled on your knees, with difficulty crawling under my crotch. I put my fingers into your hair and ordered you to begin. You licked and sucked; your service was more fervent than usual. Your tongue probed deeply into my private parts; every lick and suck was eager and powerful. The smell of my private parts made you forget everything; your licking and sucking grew faster and faster, until a hot stream sprayed from deep within my body onto your face… With the final lick and suck, you collapsed onto the floor. I looked at you on the floor, both satisfied with you and feeling a little heartache for you, so I carried you onto the bed. While you slept, at your brand, I did a complete set of medical protection and care for you. About a week later, the brand healed completely. Like this, even after you die, your corpse still doesn't belong to yourself. The etching I left in your soul will always accompany you, buried with you, until your flesh completely rots can you be rid of me — a set of brands half a centimeter deep will forever remain on your body, reminding you at all times
【Sanshengshui • Understanding】2021.8.18 — Looking at my shadow, ashamed of my form 2021.8.18 2021.8.18 2021.8.18 2021.8.18 2021.8.18 2021.8.18 2021.8.18 2021.8.18 2021.8.18 Actually, the one who knows themselves the least is precisely oneself. Just like never understanding how luosifen and all kinds of sashimi can, after the up-and-down grinding of calcium carbonate, enter the stomach. Just like you won't know in the end who is whose true-fragrance clown. Just like a lover's "promises and reluctance to part" sworn earnestly today can, after one night, become "sincere regret." Just like the pure, vast daytime doesn't know it will eventually become the "strange and high, ghost-blinking" night sky atop two jujube trees. Just like Mulin doesn't know that when she gazes into the abyss, the abyss is also gazing at her. Just like Fulei, many years after joining the police, finally understood that the dragon-slayer will eventually become the evil dragon………… Just like… cake and knife
【Sanshengshui • Owner-Sub Relationships and Knightly Love】 The encyclopedia's original words say: Knightly love is a spiritualized emotion in which men begin to unconditionally raise women to an unsurpassable height. I bought a Yilin collection and happened to see Jiang Fangzhou's reading reflection on Don Quixote, the knight-ending work, part two. Unexpectedly I additionally discovered this "knightly love" that doesn't belong to slave-sub feelings. I remember in middle school, chasing the Fate anime — that should count as a Japanese knight-type work, right? In the series I especially liked Fate/Zero, and liked the ahoge Knight King Saber. As for why — I don't know, because the person who understands you least is yourself. But Saber — is she a sub? The most common and recognized saying about "knightly love" is that knights only superficially devote themselves completely to their queen; inside, it's actually for glory. I can completely understand that as "chuunibyou." In circle terms, this kind of knight is actually what some people call a "fake m." So, to answer whether Saber is a sub — it's simple and obvious: no. To answer cheekily: because Saber's Master's identity isn't only Kiritsugu's exclusive — she's also Shirou's and Rin's, and even more the shared "sub" wife of all the otaku in the world. z Z
【Sanshengshui • Memorial • 2021.9.5】Tomorrow there are no classes. Actually being busy is pretty good too — when I'm idle I tend to think wildly, thinking myself in, unable to think my way out. A duel between reason and emotion. I've finally made up my mind to cut off this not-entirely-pure owner-sub relationship.
【Sanshengshui • Happy Mooncake Festival, Duck】An Age Without Faith The meaning of Mid-Autumn is reunion. Whether FQ or father and son, it all refers to the reunion of "family" — a kind of "family clan concept." Unlike most people in Europe and America who have religious faith, our country is atheist and has no religious faith. The super-large family written in Dream of the Red Chamber no longer exists today, but that "family concept" is actually the Chinese people's "faith" — it replaced religion. For us, today's increasingly fading family clan concept means the potentially religion-replacing "family faith" also weakens accordingly. Of course this is progress — at least for most people. For the vast majority it's a sign of believing in science, but for some minority it's emptiness. For the latter, they truly have no "faith" left, like the sailor's lyrics say, "can't find evidence of being alive." So they sigh: This is an age without faith This is an age without faith This is an age without faith
【Sanshengshui • Nothing to Fucking Say】Um,, I'm not liberal arts, not liberal arts, not liberal arts. I study science — 24K pure science, radio, Ku-band related. Even less social science, and even less literature.. I'm just a little interested in humanities-like things — that's just a purely personal little interest, right? "Choosing what's suitable" is only for livelihood security. In human terms, it's just to earn a living so I won't starve. Like Yang Zhenning returning to China to be an academician, arranged a big villa, yet to this day not doing big research and choosing to teach and idle around — same thing. Oops oops oops, of course I'm not comparing a worker like me to a big shot. But a "little interest" — it's a kind of emotional impulse that keeps going, to see my own life clearly. I know very well what work I'll do in the future, and I know it will be even harder to fully trust someone and accept an owner. The road seems to get more迷 the further I walk. The mirror said, "The first and last enemy is yourself." At ten I longed for eighteen; at twenty I thought of twenty-five; at twenty-five I may look toward thirty… not living in the present… doom doom doom
【Sanshengshui • $M, Very Warm】 This is entirely from my own personal feeling. After I peacefully became my owner's 🐶, I suddenly found I was just like a little milky 🐶, full of warmth. Like a love-starved 🐶 who found his owner's embrace, as if using the posture of a little milky 🐶 to make up for past emptiness in owner-sub feelings. Later, over time I understood: that is the early manifestation of a sub in a progressing owner-sub $M relationship. From $M's development history and trend, it is undoubtedly gradually becoming warmer. From being labeled "moral depravity" at the start, then through a hundred years of sedimentation, more and more people were driven by the humanity deep inside to "test" it, "innovate" it, accept it, developing to today. Strictly speaking, $M is no longer its original extreme, violent, cruel form — otherwise it would have died out long ago under the label of sexual violence as civilized society developed. Nowadays its branches are dazzlingly many (though the environment also has the bad driving out the good). Looking at current reality, I believe most people's $M is a Masoch-style, playful, dramatic kind of erotic fun that doesn't love pain much. So "light", so "game-like" — perhaps that's why $M is known to everyone today. I'm not saying warmth is a good thing, because the near-synonym of warmth is gamification, and $M to me is by no means an after-dinner pastime to release life's pressure — it's more like… a choice and meaning of life.
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I used to think tribute-subs paying tribute was an IQ-tax behavior. After being in the circle a long time, now I've come to emotionally empathize with and understand that psychology. There should be quite a few branches of the tribute type, right? Tribute / ATM / bill-paying / squeezing / offering money / … Let me talk about a narrower one. Perhaps it's a sub who always feels that his devotion to the one S he constantly thinks about — the supreme, utterly worshipped S — is never enough. With the nature of a licking 🐶 sub in his bones, subconsciously there arises a compensating psychology: wanting to use visible, tangible "tribute" to offset and soothe that feeling, expressing an impulse of thought or action to devote and contribute himself. This is probably, perhaps, possibly one type of tribute style acquired later in life. I suddenly find this feeling remarkably similar to the change in thinking in my green youth. Like the romance trope in fishing movies that always works: a cynical, great浪子 who has never dated and never loved anyone, joking every day with the meme "men/women only slow down the speed at which I draw my sword" — and then one day he/she meets the one in his/her life, and finally still loses that person — that belated realization after falling deep into worldly love.
【Sanshengshui • Daily】Kangkang, are you there, duck? Business king room B, with breakfast 《with window》………